Thursday, February 19, 2009

this is the song that never ends

Law school is the song that never ends. Doing well in law school is all about your ability to tolerate always having something to do. Not just something that you could be doing but something that you need to do, something that you really ought to be doing.

I am discovering that I have a very low tolerance for that sort of thing. I need a foreseeable end, a lull, a break. I like lists because you can see everything and cross things off and then you're done. I can push myself to workworkworkwork when I know after its over I won't have anything to do. That's why I've always been such a procrastinator - I'm really only willing to put forth the time and energy when I'm going to be immediately rewarded with a break. And until law school, this was a pretty successful system. In work and undergrad things came in cycles. There was down-time. There were days when I had a lot to do and days when I truly had nothing to do. I was used to it and so I got good at it.

In law school, I've always got something that I need to do. When he's here on the weekends, BF asks me if I have a lot of work to do, and my answer is always "yes." It builds - neglect one thing for the sake of something else and you'll end up behind in everything. It wears on me. At the same time I recognize that this is how law school is, and I need to get to a point where it doesn't bother me. Any suggestions?


(In)Sanity Gal said...

you hit it right on the head. although hopefully you're due for spring break soon. it's basically all that's keeping me going right now.

JD Maybe said...

no matter how many times I tell friends are constantly asking me if I am done with my homework. I am NEVER DONE! There is no end.

je said...

hahahahaha... every night my BF asks if i have a lot of work to do that night, and my answer is always yes, too. i'm so glad i'm not the only one who has that monotonous q&a on a regular basis.

A said...

The point where it no longer bothers you: graduation.

Believe me, I feel the same way. That's why I don't blog about law school anymore.